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2009-10-30T00:20:00.001+08:00

My SAT score is out today. I'm under depression. I was expecting 650 ^ for Maths but it ended only 570! T^T How?

2009-10-28T22:49:00.002+08:00

Hi there! I am back to update after have been gone for about 2 months. I am sorry but was just to busy. Home for me is only the place to sleep,shower and have breakfast. I am outside EVERYDAY and only be back home in the late evening. TT Please don't think that I am having a good life here. I have class everyday ok! My everyday is almost the same so this may be a reason why I didn't update my blog at all becos there's nothing to update. heehee. I hope I could update more often when I am done with my exams. There're still 2 more to go. For now, I'll update at least once a month! haha

Just went to Kor Larn in Pattaya last Tue. That was super nice. I totally forgot about a small island calls Sentosa! I'm lazy to re-upload the photos here so please see them on FB. I wish I can bring you guys go one day ^^

I guess I'll be without school untill next June or August. I'm waiting for the University addmission in Jan. I've to prepare a portfolio that contains my art works.Aww....super tired.

I'm planning to go to SG in Jan or Feb. I hope this plan will be a confirm one and not just a blank dream.lol. Dad was talking to me about it today.He asked where would I be staying and I innocently answered him 'Hotel'. He wasn't so satisfied.Oh damn. He asked why don't I stay at a friend's place. This's so funny! I wish I can too but is he thinking that I only have a few friends there? I'd feel really bad to disturb a friend who would have to find a space for me to sleep and be a nice host to take care of me when he/she has to go to school and leaving me in her house!! ? Some more, when I go out with other groups of friends and be home late and he/she has to wait for me to be back? that's very ridiculous! My dad's point is that if I stay at my friend's,my friend will feel easy to stay at mine when he/she visits me in Thailand! It may be true but I think the feeling is diffident eh. Ok nvm , I'll find my way! haha

2009-08-26T00:29:00.000+08:00

2009-08-25T23:56:00.004+08:00

Hi everyone, I'm here to update before XW kills me. I know I said that I'd update soon but I didn't have enough time to type my whole post..

The picture above is my lastest work. I used my 2 hands to draw it out. so please lemme have a little space to show it out.hahahaha

I've been very well. Not feeling so uncomfortable at home anymore for no reason. However, yet I still desire for me freedom.

My life is quite boring,like I'm living according to a timetable. Everything goes the same everyday. But as you know, I cant really stay in the frame. I've got to sneak out.hahahaha

So I often run to somewhere at the end of the day.

As my life has been so boring, I have nothing much to update now. XW told me to upload photos and so I'll upload them in the next post.

I miss you guys and hope that we can meet soon soon ( before the colour of XW's Longchamp feded!.)

goooooooooodnite :D

2009-07-26T00:01:00.002+08:00

I'm sorry for being away for so longggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggg.
I didn't want to update 'cos most of the things to update were bad memories so I didnt want to update, even for now. I want to apologise for not reading you guys' blogs too. I'm not having spare time for myself at all.

Dad sent me for classes and ordered me to do so many stuff at home. So many that I don't understand his intention. I'm having full-day classes 5days a week and 3 other duties to be done at home. So how many hours do I have left for myself not including time for bed? This may sound so exaggerating but it's really happening to me and it'll be like this for as long as I'm home. I'm not used to this kind of life at all. Okay, you guys may say that you are also busy but there are differences between us.you can go out after school and be home a bit late or have late night outs at the weekends. Yeah, I can't. I don't know why he wanted me to go out to the world,to live by myself and to manage everything by myself when he wants to control me in everyway. I feel so uncomfortable to be around him. If he wants me to be closer to him then I would say please find some other ways. I'm not an obeying kid anymore. I want to choose for myself when I know I can't!These things will just keeps us apart and will be further and further.

He just talked to me again today. Whatever he said might not sound so bad but it gave me pressure. His words alway give me pressure. I just can't feel the happiness to be home with family. I know I can't hate him when I love him so much.So I'm trying to keep a distance and we won't have to quarrel. People told me to speak out but I would say I don't dare to. I don't want him to see me as a weak kid. I would rather force myself to do what he wanted me to even I know I'd fail.

I wish to enjoy myself as much as possible at this age but I think I got to give it up. I know I'm enjoying too but I can't never be as how I had. I'm crying like a kid but I got to keep it as a secret. I'm just wishing to go somewhere far because I know that this will give me the sense of lovely and warm family!

I may sound so sorrowful. I think I am. My dad isn't that strict but I just hate the way he rules me. I enjoy what I love to do and I'm enjoying them. However, I can give pieces of shit when I'm doing things that I dont wish to do. :D

I love you dad.

2009-06-18T11:43:00.003+08:00

My exam has ended but I don't feel any good. It was oral exam today and I dont think I've done well. I could really feel that the teacher kinda dislike me (in some sense). May be it's because I didn't work hard and my speech didn't impress her.

I was feeling so great last night after I had a chat with my colombian and canadian friend. They are much older than me but I feel good to be with them. I think I can learn a lot of things from them. My canadian friend is an architect and I was telling her about my dream. I wish to become an architect too. It is not a blank dream. It's possible just that I don't really know if I'm ready for it yet. Others always tell me that it's really tough. You have to suffer throughout the 5years in the university and it's breath-taking. I heard that architecture students often have to stay up the whole night for their work. I know how I am.I know I cant endure much and Im so scared.She told me that she thought of giving up several times but she felt that if she gave up it would be wasted. I can imagine how I will be. I think I will cry several times and will regret for choosing it while I know that I do like it. Hmm..sounds a little ironic but it's true. Two of them gave me passion to try and to succeed. I was so into the conversation last night.

Im so blur right now because Im hungry.So will just end it like this.hahaha

2009-06-15T13:27:00.000+08:00

Why do I feel that everything irritates me?

Now I wish to go home as fast as I could. I'm bored of everything now and I'm broke too! :(
My brother's Beijing trip has been cancelled because of H1N1.Thank you very much. My family dared to go to Japan but dare not to come to China. Which do you think is scarier?

I had my chinese writting exam today and I can say that it was totally crap. I left 24marks undo.hahahahaha.. You won't be able to guess how am I now. I skip school so often that teachers begin to dislike me! =x

I guess I'll study for the reading exam tmr! T.T

2009-06-14T01:58:00.002+08:00

Hi blog!

You must have been missing me!

Suddenly blogspot is blocked in China. I dont know the cause and dont really care to know. I'm accessing to it via Hotspotshield.Quite inconvenient but no choice.

I'm still 'wasting my time' in Tianjin now but it'll not be so long from now. I still dont know the exact date for my departure but it'll not be so longgggg. Yippy! And people! see u in Singapore in July ^^ I'm planning to visit and permission has been given.

For update, I have been going through really really a lot of things all this time.All the goods and bads. I realised how young I was. I didnt face the real world which I thought it was real. It was a kid world.hahahahaa

My gang has gone back home and I'm alone. I'm not lonely! I'm using the time I'm having now to understand myself better and try to understand about what do I really want! hahahaa I think I sound so old! No! I'm mature. :)

I hope that all my friends are doing very well now. I'm really missing you guys eventhough we didn't talk much now but you guys share memories in a part of my life so how could I forget you guys hah? I'm really missing u!

Ps. welcome the new reader(s) of my blog! I know that you have been reading my old posts this little while.hahahaha. pls know that I really love u na! :P

2009-05-01T21:23:00.003+08:00

I've already been in Tianjin for 2 months now and I haven't felt the love for the place yet. Three days ago I risked to cut my hair for the first time in China. I couldn't endure the thickness of my hair. The outcome was not bad, I am actually sartisfied . :D I did dye my hair too,for the first time. Initially, the colour wasn't so obvious but now I think it's getting more and more obvious. My parents are coming next weekend and I dunno if I'll be questioned about dying hair. hahahaah. sound like a small kid, yes i am!

I miss everyone, I really am :3

2009-04-19T21:20:00.002+08:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8OcQ9A-5noM&feature=related

Oh gosh! I have to make this quick post. Please watch the video in the link above. This lady,her name is Susan Boyle. She has just rocked my world and my tears almost flew out of my eyes. I was so touched by her.really. She's super talented and she gave me the lesson that we really can't judge others by their looks :)

2009-04-18T17:12:00.002+08:00

I have been wanting to blog for the past few days but I have got no time.So first of all, happy belated birthday to Kritchapong and the twins,Zl&Zs.Lets start with my most thrilling story. I experienced the supernatural thingy in my dorm about 2weeks ago. I was chatting with my friend who slept in my room that night. So we chatted until 3am+ and were trying to sleep. She slept first and I was trying 'cos i have trouble sleeping at night. Suddenly, I felt that someone was blowing beside my right ear and I thought it was her, so I tried to turn and see but I couldn't move. My eyes could see that she was already sleeping but there was still wind that kept hitting my face. I started saying the prayer silently and the feeling was gone.The blowing was back again when I stopped my prayer and so I continued. It was like this for three times and after that I had a nightmare which I couldn't rmb the details when I woke up. The feeling was like I was half-slept but I can tell that it wasn't a dream.
Of course, I was super freaked out. It was the first time in my life. Another friend of mine experienced a similar thing a few days after me. I told the stories to a senoir who used to live here and surprisingly she experienced it before too! Oh gosh. She even said that 2 terms back there was a Thai who lived on the 5th floor who experienced sth and she cried. I dont know if other foreigners here have experienced anything but all the things I heard are all from the Thais. I just wish that I didn't do anything wrong to make "whoever" unhappy or if I had, I'm really sorry. Now, I have Buddha on top of my bed and I say the prayer before going to bed. Pheww...I feel much safer and it never happened again :)
I could almost forget all about that untill last night when I went for super late supper with a Colombian friend. He heard about mine and I thought his will just be similar but it's totally not. He said that this thing has happened several times in his life. He told me that some night when he was sleeping and there will be a dream which doesn't seem like a dream. He wont be able to move and there will be a voice asking him what he wants to do.He said that the voice isn't so friendly and so he was frightened.When he replied that he wanted to get up, there was some forces pushed him from his back and he was floating in the air and could see himself sleeping on the bed. He said it's like what he read in the book about the soul leaving the body. o.o' The voice then asked where he wanted to go and he could just point to any directions he wished to go. He couldn't go through the wall but able to 'flow' out the window. He said that it went so slowly and when he told it to go faster it could just move faster than the speed of sound and he got back into his own body!!!!!! arkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk.... i was freaked out. He was telling me about this at 2am++. He added on that he likes it but he wants the explanation for it so that he will know what is this and how to deal and to PLAY with it! GOSH.I think Josanne wuld love to experience it once :P
Since my term has started, I still haven't gone for classes for a complete week yet. I'll try hard next week :) Polys are starting this monday so my dear friends please enjoy every single minute you have left.

2009-04-02T20:34:00.004+08:00

Things have been going as usual lately. Some are better and some are worse. April Fool's Day was so uninterested. China people don't even regconise this day so I spent it quietly. hahaha. I think I have to star reading some English books before my English turns bad(or worse). I was not feeling so well on Tuesday and my 'beloved' Korean classmate told me to be careful! think she meant take care but that's how her English is. I corrected her dairy again today and yah... I might learn from her. " ... When I listen lecture, my sister call me. She say if I am free and can go to beeksotore with her. I answer good. I walk to Nankai University bookstore very far. so tired. I bought a book. I am very satisfiyed. After back home, I and my sister and brother together we eat lunch. delicious..." I might soon be like that! So I bought a book with both Chinese and English and the English is so crappy that I stopped after a few pages.

It's Qing Ming day and Monday as well as a public holiday. I'm not planning to travel to anywhere but stay in Tianjin to study! OMG..Arisa Juengsophonvitavas knows how to study. I have not been studying lately and was enjoying myself too much, I believe and it is now the time to pay back.

I am feeling so down now. I started to miss all of my old friends. I have not gotten used to not seeing them for so long. For my classmates, we used to meet everyday in school. For my close friends like Bright who I used to meet almost everyday too and at least twice a week when we are back to Thailand. However, we didn't talk almost at all when I'm in China. This made me felt super bad at first but got used to it now. I just try to think that she's not so free as she got to be with P'vin and her exam is round the corner. People are growing and we meet different new ppl. Her life goes on and so do mine and everyone's. So just be happy that our friendship still last :D

2009-03-26T14:27:00.002+08:00

I know that my cap is cute! lols 20rmb ;)

I was quite pissed off when I was blogging my last post, not because of those stuff that I wrote about but because of someone ard me.

What would you do with the clothes that you borrow from someone? If it were me, I'd wash and return asap. I think that this's just a basic manners.really. However, this person walked into my room last night as I was blogging,wearing my pj which I lent to her last friday. This isn't the first time that I mad at this thing but my feeling was just like shouldn't she return them to me alr? A giordano t-shirt and a mark&spencers boxers are nothing much but they are my personal belongings. It's already quite nice that I share them with her. I'm getting a little disgust with my boxers now.

I was once mad because I saw she wore my boxers inside her jeans the next day after I lent her. I understand that she feels that there's nothing wrong so I tried to accept. She still wore them again the night we got back from BJ and again last night. Isn't that too much? She washed them and she's still wearing them! Do you feel comfortable wearing them?

I just knew her in TJ.Okay, we're close but still not that close. I'm still keeping a distance because she's much older than me too. I didn't say anything yet 'cos I think it's not so nice. We'll still need to live together for 3months so dont just let this destroy the good friendship.

To me, this's a minor problem for me but it left me with a bad feeling towards her. hmmm... ppl are different and I should try to be in her shoes :)

I'm very sleepy now and she's resting on my bed. I told her to get back to her room and she rufused. thank you very much.

2009-03-25T23:25:00.007+08:00

I'm back from Beijing with tonnes of stories. I didn't spend much but got quite lots of stuff.Most importantly, I got a Longchamp as I desired. I was having there,I guess? Acting as a 16-year-old guide who brought 7 ppls who are in 20s and can't speak Chinese to travel in BJ. Wowwow... sounds like my Chinese is so strong but at least we survived!

My hotel room no. was 6065. Generally, since it starts with 6,it should be on the 6th floor but believe me my room is located on basement 1 ! thank you. Besides from having no window, the batheroom has no door and it's transparent!

Oh I really can't wait to share this. So in the end we used the towels to make up door and turned of light to shower to avoid reflection!hahaha

To keep my post short, I'll just mention about the mojor incidents. On the day of departure, a person in my tour group left her just bought LV bags (fake) at Ya Show Place which is so far from Beijing Train Station and we only had 40mins left. These 3 bags costed more than s$400 ( they are big but I still believe that she was cheated by Chinese.) So I sacrified my train ticket to go back and find her stuff and luckily they were still there. So rare possibility. We then took taxi to Beijing North station to catch the earliest fast train back to Tianjin. This station is even further and the ticket is more expensive. However that was not the problem. The thing that really pissed me off was the uncivilisation of some Chinese ppl. I am trying to accept the fact of their smoking and spitting habits but now there are more things for me to learn. I wouldn't be so pissed off if I experienced this in the 19yuan-ticket train.

When I got on the train I was so tired from running around for the whole day. I found my seat and it was taken by someone else. He asked me to exchange as he wanted to sit with his wife. That was fine, I understand but I was saperated from my friends too. I sacrified. On his seat, it was also taken up. I thought I misunderstood with the sign so I just sat down on another side. It was just 10 9 8 on the sign board and I wasn't sure which side they started from. I closed my eyes and an aunty appeared on the scene. She looked so kind and civilised. She said that I took her seat and so I stood up and re looked. I told that guy who was there earlier that his seat was actually in the middle. He gave me a blur but finding problem look. He said " it's also this role so just dont need to concern about where I want to sit." WHAT THE FUCK IS ON THIS EARTH! Dont treat me like that just because I am a child to you. The aunty gave a troubled look and pushed me to the next seat and she sat down. WHAT THE FUCK IS ON THIS EARTH AGAIN! I was so kuku?hahaha Yah, so I just said out loud " HAO LE LA!" and then I just sat down on the unwanted seat :( *Repeat. SHE PUSHED ME!

Okay I was having, i guess (again). There were plenty time for shopping but I didnt shop much. I wasnt tired walking but more on bargaining with them.

I'm tired now. goodnight everyone :)

2009-03-20T00:03:00.003+08:00

I'll be leaving for BJ in 9 and a half hours. This trip is mainly for shopping. Am I a shopaholic? I will go to 王府井　，　西单　，　五道口　，　永安里．．．　I wish I can complete all these places in 3 days!hahaha

So my mum told me not to bring too much cash with me. I suppose she scares that I might lose it and as well as spend all of it! Things are just cheap cheap cheappppp!
After all, I don't think TaoBao is that great. It's quite troublesome and some of the stuff is not as good as it looks online. So I shouldn't risk.

School has been super boring. I wish I can just don't go and spend the rest of the time traveling in China. I'm so happy that I can skip school tomorrow. I have not been going to school regularly. The max is 3 days a week! hahah sounds bad.

A problem that makes me hate school is also because of a thoughtful korean classmate. She is nice and just being 'too' thoughtful and generous. She was so happy to know that I know English. I told her that :

Me : 我以前在新加坡学习
Kor. classmate : 新加坡？
Me :　是。Ｓｉｎｇａｐｏｒｅ　你知道吗？
Kor. classmate ：　ｏｈ！　Ｓｉｎｇａｐｏｒｅ　我知道　我知道，　你有去过吗？
Me : 有啊！　-.-"

She told me that her English name is Ann and keeps asking me everyday that what is her name. She says I am clever when I give her the correct answer! -.- By the way, she's 24 and she wishes to be an air hostress that's why she needs to learn Chinese and English.

It's really fine for me to teach her English. However, when it comes to the condition that she'll teach me Korean too, it becomes bad. Actually, I am not so interested in Korean but just to be polite and take it for fun. She is so serious about it. She taught me the consonants and vowels and by right should start from the basic since I know none. She jumped to words which she feels that they are simple. It's not done yet. She gives me daily spelling somemore. I am learning bicycle in Korean when I don't even know how to count 1-10! So yesterday, I had both Chi and Kor spellings. I didn't want to upset her so I spent hours learning Kor and in the end I failed both Chi and Kor la! Everyday during break, I cant go for break but got to stay put and learn Kor. Josanne might be jealous of me but it's not that simple. Imagine, I am learning 2 foreign languages at a go! I am trying to tell her to stop but still cant find a way to say it nicely and not hurtful. Today, she told me to revise, there'll be spelling again tmr. I was so happy as I knew I'd nt have to see her again tmr! hahahahahhahaa

I dunno how have we survived communicating with each other. Since her chinese is not so strong and her english is suck! Okay, I will forget about these and enjoy myself shopping in Beijing this weekend and get back to this for another 3months! :D

* To Josanne, handsome korean guys and pretty girls are only on TV, in reality there's none!

2009-03-14T13:43:00.002+08:00

I'm feeling terribly ashame with myself about last night. I wanted to try out the nightlife in Tianjin and so went to May Flower bar with a group of seniors. I drank and I drunk. I became an animal which made me feel so disgraceful of myself right now. I vomited and needed others assistance.hahaha

I shouldn't have 'cos I am not close to those ppl whom I went with. Indeed I met them for the first time last night. Feeling so upset now :(

I will be a good girl! hahahahahhahahaaa

2009-03-12T16:05:00.002+08:00

Wooo! Going Beijing to shop next weekend [$o$]

Tianjin is too boring. Only a few places for me to shop and they are all not my cup of tea. So Beijing!!!!

hahahahahhahaaaaaa

2009-03-07T15:48:00.002+08:00

So It's already been a week of my stays in Tianjin.I'm still not used to it yet. I still cant accept people's smoking and spitting habits. so disgusting -.-

Food is really really really oily. I bring tissue with me everywhere to remove those "excess" oil from my food before swallow it down!hahaha

The weather still doesnt seem to be hotter yet but at least there's sunshine these 2 days. I really miss the sun in SG :( The chinese class is so boring. It's more like an adult's class. The oldest student can be my mother already I think!hahahaa Most of them are Korean. Their accent is so funny. Frankly, Korean are not friendly at all. I have bad impression abt them since young so now I choose not to make friend with them and stick if indonesian instead. Apart from that I'm also being forced to speak the China's accent like 哪儿，all the "er" sound. So irritating la!hahahha

I really cant wait to go back!

2009-03-02T21:48:00.003+08:00

I'm officially in Tianjin now. It's so cold here, as low as -5 degrees! Yeah, i'm dying not soon or later. hahaa! Food here are so oily so I ate instant noodle for not less than 3meals from the day I arrived. So dont ask me what are nice but ask which band of instant noodle is nice!hahaha

My class has not started yet and so I have been touring around and shopping all these days . There is a shop calls Meter..*sth i cant rmb*! hahahah which has Jay Chou, Zhang Shao Han and Wilber as its presenters. However, that's not important,it's just a description. The important thing is that there is a new collection weekly! OMG!!! imagine if u're a lover of this band,u'll go bankrupt for sure!hahahaa
After going to most of the shopping places, I think taobao is the best way to shop. really. so Xianwee please place your orders!hahahaha

Hi5 is blocked in China . This is bad,so badddddd. I cant upload pic and view comments for 4 months! how perfect..... -.-

2009-02-26T11:06:00.002+08:00

So it is today... my flight is tmr at 1.20am tmr and so i got to go to airport tonight at 11pm. I'm not sure if i'm excited or not wanting to go hahahahaa

My little brother came to me last night and said this " you lied to me.You told me that you wont leave again and now u're going to China!" O.O and he cried :(

Then this morning he didnt want to get up.He just kept hugging me and begging me to send him to school.Actually i got to go to the temple and give food offering to the monks but in the end i went to send him to school since it's my last day at home.he was just too excited that he forgot to wear his underwear to sch =.= ....

2009-02-23T01:36:00.002+08:00

Today was tiring! I stayed up late the night before and was woken up quite early by the call from P'Vhan.
We were planning to meet but she was hospitalised because of food poisoning o.o
So I went shopping with my mom and aunty. They said that they wanted to bring ME go shopping but in the end I got nothing but both of them spent almost all the $$ in their wallets.hahaha
As I was walking and carrying my mom's stuff after her (-.-") , suddenly I realised sth. She told me that she does not like wearing watch,necklace and all kinds of body accessories.So...
Add-on :
She does not like body accessories. DIAO! hahahahahahaaaa

Anyway, I have bought KT610 and it probably will be delivered to me by tuesday (please!)

2009-02-20T14:47:00.003+08:00

I have started packing for Tianjin. I have less than a week left. I was really waiting for the time but now I just dont feel like going so soon :(

My days have been boring. Having meeting Vhan once in 2-3 days time.herrr....fun?hahahah

LG KT610 has become my dream hp.wanted to go and buy it today but was asked to stay home today :( XianWee said it is not nice but i dunno why i really want o buy this model.No new hp has caught my eyes for the last 4 years!

add-ons :

She hates when ppl use the phase "not my cup of tea".

She feels that the meaning in the song รักไม่ได้ is nonsense.

She thinks that one shouldnot love a person who does not love one anymore! (what a cruel thought!)

2009-02-19T16:53:00.002+08:00

What I think I know so far...

She loves Coke.
She loves to be alone.
She loves MIU MIU.
She loves country and classic songs.
She loves water globe.
She loves MacDonald's Hot Cake.
She likes Mickey the most among other Disney's charecters.
She likes Chuck Bass and Blair Wardolf and hates Dan
She likes Musical plays,especially "Behind the Scene".
She likes Clash,especially the song "เช็ดน้ำตา".
She likes watching movie at Shaw House because there are much thing to eat.
She likes ice.
She likes her recent Valentine's gift.
She hates white hair.
She hates dog.
She doesnt like to be surprised.
She wants LG enV2
She has a gold DKNY shoes which I love it but she has never worn once.
She is the daughter of an ex-mafia!
She doesn't like people to walk her home.
She sneaks out at night every weekend for movies.
She can't live without Youtube.
Her favourite phases are "ชั่งเหอะ" and "ไหวมั้ย"
She always take Swiss Air business class as her mother says that she wants to give her children the best when she is still alive!
She sleeps early because she believes it will make her grow taller.
She is troublesome.
She wants nose surgery.
She jay-walks.
She once wanted to wear mascot and worked in amusement park and she once wanted to sell ice-cream.
She sees Hello Kitty as a childish cartoon.
She would take 10 photos everyday after she has done her nose surgery.
She bites her nails but she does manicures.
She doesnt wear clothes that the top and the bottom don't match to go to bed.
She is so hot! lol
and the most importantly she barely knows anything about me! hahahahha...

2009-02-16T16:19:00.000+08:00

I woke up with regrets. :(

2009-02-12T10:36:00.003+08:00

Your score on this personality test was 60%

Others see you as fresh, lively, charming, amusing, practical, and always interesting; someone who's constantly in the center of attention, but sufficiently well-balanced not to let it go to their head. They also see you as kind, considerate, and understanding; someone who'll always cheer them up and help them out.

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I dont know why are there so many decisions to be made in life. The idea of going to the Down Under popped up in my head again but nothing has really been planned yet. I still dont know where is going to be my real destination. It's like I am living away each day now without any thoughts? Really looking forward to go to China,at least the face something new and different from now.

I think I am trying to find the best chioce for my future studies. However, I feel I am being discouraged by my dad. I dont know if he really means it with his words or just trys to give opinions but they are bad. I am still not sure which feild to go for but the most absolute now is achitecture or interior design,what if I cant get'em? Dad just keep saying that what will I be able to do in the next 5years after I've graduated since he still cant see any talent in me right now. :(
Just feel really bad hearing those words. While mum keep saying that there is still time to plan,but this cant really make me feel any better.

P.s. I hate ppl with no consideration.I woke up this morning wishing to hear a reply,but there was none. So is my $$ flying away again? fedup.

2009-02-01T23:43:00.002+08:00

I'm having a really boring life now. There is really nothing much to do and the worse is there's no late night out =.=* I slept at the hospital last night as my grandpa was admitted due to swallen leg. I dunno what happened but he was so stubborn when I told him to go to hospital.Everyone tried but all failed to.Until my dad came and just ordered him to get into the car!haha and tmr night I'll be sleeping at my grandma's house in another province which I have to take a 45-min flight there. I am so call changing my sleeping place alternately.lol

I have become the love councellor(so suited me la!) for a couple who are both my close friends. They conference me in their call quite often when they are quarelling and cant find a way out!haha quarelling for them is a NORM,they quarelling at least once a day and I dunno how long will this relationship going to last for but they are really cute!haha The guy,Vin who doesnt know how to be romantic and sweet to his girlfriend and everyone(i think) called me to ask me how to be romantic and sweet!?!haha. I dunno if he feels that I am or what. To be R and S for me is to take down what your lover likes and loves and try to give her surprises with all those. Always find any possible chances to surprise with anything you can.I dunno may be because I like to surprise but sadly the person I always try to surprise doesnt like surprise or what I dunno.So my surprises always become a stupid and childish thing.sad.Oops! :x

Ps. Vhaan went for photo shooting again.this time round a little sexy but still pretty as always.hhahaha it's nt out yet.I'll update :)

miss u guys again and again.

2009-01-30T12:23:00.002+08:00

Hi there! It's 30th January 2009 today,the day that everyone is waiting for except me? haha/T^T I feel so regretting for not applying for poly after i got my result. Firstly,it was because I felt that it was useless as i am not planning to come back to SG afterall. Secondly, I thought the period for applying was not that short.I was still thinking that I would try applying for fun when I was back to Bkk but i realised it when XW told me at the airport that it had ended a day ago at 4pm.WTH! a very very stupid reason -.-

So I wanted to appeal but it's not possible too 'cos i have cancelled my student pass.Someone told me that if i cancel my pass,i'll get $2000 back and so i gave it a try and in the end,not a single cent! T^T

I really miss the old time.I miss school.I miss everyone.I miss SG. I dont know if I am still not getting use to the life at home where I have to be disciplined and "pretend" to be a good girl!hahaha I have to be home by 6pm,cant go out at night..... which is so different from my life back there :( quite hard to adapt 'cos i didnt grow up at home. Nvm, i only have to endure for a month more and i'll be flying away to China!hahaahaha I dunno if it's going to be better or worse but at least I feel more comfortable staying by myself. ^^

So the only happy thing at home is that I got a lot of hong bao this year!hhahahahahahaha!!!

really really ($.$) since the student pass incident! wahhaha

okay quite a long post alr,i really miss u guys and i promise that i'll be there again (soon?) ;)

HAPPY BELATED CHINESE NEW YEAR! LOL

2009-01-18T20:09:00.005+08:00

Singapore - Malaysia - Thailand

LOL ;]

Sea of cloud

THE END!
:)))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))

2009-01-18T01:54:00.002+08:00

Finally,the journey of the secondary school life has come to an end. So,firstly I've got to thank u guys for giving me all the wonderful times.I'd really really miss them. *^*
I'd remember 12/01/09 for life.umm talking abt results,I'm happy with it.I got B3 for m english which was already a surprise for me and the L1R4 is 14.
Went for ice skating with Jasanne,Chaleen,Liying,Xian wee,Shujun and the twins the next day.Josanne screamed the loudest and after 2hrs of playing, she still held on to the side! No wonder Chal msg me in the morning to ask if 2hrs was enough! LOL Then at night Xian wee,twins and I went to bugis and wanted to play pool and we went to find the "fusion beside this fashion" for quite long.Thank to god for sending Xian's friend, "Zai Bugis Pang Sai" to lead us! I know Ziling will laugh when she reads this ;P and so i played until almost midnight and i much wanted to sleep there -.-
So i spent my 6days in SG going out with friends and i thought it would be more than enough but actually it isnt so Xian wee told me to extend my stay for a month! o.O
There was a surprise on my departure too. Someone whom i didnt expect to cry,cried! LOL i thought she was just making fun or sth but my brother called me and told me that it was real ;[ and it was a terrible flight 'cos i kept thinking about u guys and things we did T^T

2009-01-06T23:20:00.002+08:00

Hi there! how long have I been away from this blog?hmmm... =.=

Many things have happened last year.I dunno if I should remember them but I'm really wishing for the changes this year. Change in everything plsssssssss >,<

I'm not quite enjoying myself recently as the economic is not so good,it's effecting my dad's company,therefore i dare not spend so much $!!!hahahaaa It's not effecting that much but I just feel insecure!!!hahaa

The Beijing trip was not so enjoying.The weather was so cold but without snow.The lowest was -7 c.My legs were half-frozen and my face skin was so peeled off. T_____T I thought I applied more than enough lotion.The worst of all was that I didnt spend even a 200 yuan.unbelievable eh!haha there was no time for shopping that's why :(

Now i'm missing school so much.feel like waking up early and going to school.Life is so boring without going to school.Now I can understand the feeling of those unfortunate kids hahaa T T

I'm waiting anxiously for the news abt the releasing of the results,i'll fly to SG straight away to wear my school uniform for another time :))))))))))))))))))))))))

miss you guys so much :3

2009-01-04T23:50:00.001+08:00

Hey guys!
HAPPY NEW YEAR 2009
may all your wishes come true.
:))))))))))))))))))

I've just come back from Beijing,so tired now.will update again soon =.=

2008-12-01T23:10:00.003+08:00

The moon can smile tonite! This is the cutest natural phenomenon I've ever seen in my life!hahaaaa

I think u guys cant see it in SG but it can be seen in every part of Thailand! Josanne was saying that I was hallusinating because of situation in Bkk!WTH....Please la i saw it with my own eyes okay!,i still can see eventhough my eyes are small!!!!!!!!!!

I dunno why the 2nd pic is smaller but anyway I'm feeding pupppies tgt with rabbits.they can play tgt,damn cool hahahahahaaa

2008-11-30T21:17:00.003+08:00

Hey guys! i'm back (from where?) hahahaa...after i returned home,i attended my beloved grandma's funeral straight away. I didn't think that a drop of tear would drop off my eyes but actually it flew out at least a litre...now I'm still not getting used to the fact that she has gone :(

and after her funeral I was admitted to hospital the next day which was Josanne's BD becouse of food poisoning LOL!

I believe that there's news about mob in Bkk everyday and it must sound very serious.Now is the most serious period but i think it's not as serious as the news sounds.I'm not effected and still lead normal life hahaha and i support the mob too ^^

I AM YELLOW! :) LOL

2008-11-13T23:08:00.002+08:00

how should I start this post today...? ok,my mom called me very early today telling me to go back earlier on tmr or the day aft bcos my grandma is in ICU.
It was unexpected to be this soon. I was still planning my this weekend outing in the night b4. I tried to pack all my things,clear all my stuff by today and i managed. My fight has been changed to tmr afternoon and I was thinking that i'll be seeing my grandma latest by sat morning.
However,things are unexpected.She didnt wait for me to go back,she just left without me this evening... R.I.P.

2008-11-10T23:04:00.000+08:00

no more japan trip!

2008-11-03T19:21:00.002+08:00

my hand was holding onto TYS,now no more!haha

Finally! today arrived! YIPPY,how i have longed for today!! YOOHOOO.

Ziling told me that I look very cute in the photo in the previous post as well as mentioned that i really look like my dad.haha

I was just wanting to show that my face looks confuse since young!haha

SS paper was so unexpected,what i studied didnt come out but anyway i forgot all abt it now.

rushed home aft the paper to play my games but was so annoyed bcos the connection had got problems.DAMN fedup and so waited for it to work.

Josanne introduced a game to me called Hamster Ball.The way she described it made me imagined how cool the game is but found out that it's totally a murderer game! I've killed abt 14 hamsters now!

...may the 14hamsters and mamy more to come R.I.P.

T^T

2008-10-29T22:36:00.000+08:00

so damn confuse at the moment!

2008-10-07T23:18:00.002+08:00

I'm feeling damn lost at this very moment!I can feel my anger! my god-sis is going to SG with me and will be staying with me(almost all the time) for 10days which means she's going back aft the O level prac and my thai have finished!WTH! how am i going to study? i've been trying to change her mind but it was useless, what can i do now?
T________T

2008-10-07T12:07:00.002+08:00

hello! i'm not missing SG at all,it reminds me of O level which i wish it'll pass asap.I can say that until this moment i have not started revising! i dunno how will I do but I just have got no passion to study! - . -"

ytd went to my god-sis' house to be her personal photo shooter!haha I think we took abt almost 500photos in 2hrs!it was the very first time that i used up half of my 2GB SDcard!haha

I have not enjoyed to the max but there're only 2more days left :'(

2008-10-02T22:39:00.002+08:00

Hi there! I'm in Bangkok right now.My flight was ermm...(damn) discomfortable. I was sitting beside a VERY VERY VERY HUGE GUY on the TG economy class!imagine the size of the seat of the economy class. The first minute i saw this guy coming towards the seat beside mine,i felt like raising up both my hands and asking for changing my seat!It's not the worst yet. His body smelt like dog food.wowwow...ahh and the whole flight I couldnt move.I wanted to go to the loo but there was no chance.I was not sitting on the seat but should describe it as squeezing in a small space beside the window!hmm..please imagine!haha

2008-09-25T16:08:00.003+08:00

WOW! I've graduated! :)))))))))))))

Nothing much today,but it was a meaningful and wonderful one! I'll miss school :)

PS. i dont have everyone's e-mail so cant send pic to you guys.if u want just add my msn : bananamonkey.co@hot ok :)

another PS. these are only a part of the photos taken today.there're still many many more. We acted like we were receving O'level result today!haha

2008-09-20T22:54:00.002+08:00

i love sugar!

what's wrong with these few days? It's been damn hot and i'm dying.So as the relieve the heat,i cut my hair.I feel that my head is much lighter now!haha

went to Starbucks at united square to study today.quite crowed,a lot of O level candidates there. saw Kanan today , he followed me and when i turned,he said "i love your hair" ! haha

so sorry,no more emo hair now!

I'm feeling to bad.I must have upset my mum. I've been turning off my hp since ytd.just dont feel like being contacted by anyone. So i think my mum has been calling me for several times. I turned on my hp just now to check msg and she happened to call again. i didnt pick up but when she knew that i can be contacted she just left a miss call. hmmm...this make me feel so bad. she must have been really worrying. i just have got nothing to say :(

2008-09-15T15:59:00.002+08:00

today is a totally "GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOD DAY" i realised a lot of things this morning. I left my pencil case at home on the day of my prelim exam! I didnt know there was sciences paper1 aft e math paper 2 hahaha~~
but at least,i solved my problems :) chemistry was very easy,i'm dreaming of getting full mark sia!hahah dream on...
Today shujun kept telling me abt "It started with a kiss".Her eyes will grow shiny whenever come to this topic.haha her beloved Zhi Shu (wish i spell correctly,otherwise she'll come and get me)
went to crazy ang mo again today....i hate the guy there,he's aso rude!always act cool,coloured his hair gold,wanting to be like the owner >.<"
I demonstated the differences btw high class restaurant and the coffee shop to Josanne. She enjoyed it so much that she took video. I was shy so the video is not so comprehensive.lets retake it tmr! haha

by the way, i've got a knife for my mooncakes ytd! O.O

2008-09-13T01:15:00.002+08:00

Hi there! days have been passing very extreamly fast.When i realised again,it's alr friday!

I am reluctantly waiting for the day to see my prelim result. Yor prelim is my O'level!haha

these 2 days have been bad. I'm allergic to the ledger papers or the table,i'm nt quite sure but i have been sneezing through out ytd and today's papers.

I have been observing things on the buses i take each day and begin to give these experiences names. Begin with yesterday's one, the title is "KEEP KISSING"!. I was on the way home on bus 55. What I saw was a couple,they kept kissing in a very crowded bus. I was sitting just opposite of where they were standing,kissing,hugging..... so quite a good view.hmmm...the most funny was there was a GY boy,probably sec1. still very innocence. he didnt know that there was this scene happening beside him and when he saw it,his expression was so damn shocked!haha so he turned away and tried to peek them whenever they kissed!hahaa

today's title is " 'ta ma de' guinness book record achiever"! I was on the bus 112, sitting in front of me were 3 china chinese guys. they was talking in the china accent,very fast,not so comprehensive. What i could figure out was that a guy was saying the phase "ta ma de" for at least 10times in a minute! so pro! he was like started and ended every sentence with "ta ma de"...

2008-09-07T16:18:00.003+08:00

Yoohoo... holiday is ending in 8hrs :(

time passed quite too fast this week. I have not enjoyed to the MAX. it suppose to be not study to the MAX !?!

Haha..whatever, anyway didnt study much and next wk is purely the prelim week. I can tell that i wont do well. I can predict that my O'level will be the same. human never learn the lesson TT

went to stay over in Sentosa on friday night. DAMN "fun" (can sense how sacrastic it is LOL)

we didnt book the resort,wanted to save money so we brought tent. As u know,it's raining everyday. hmmm...being quite optimitic we thought it'd be a sunny day.

was quite fine actually..however at abt 3am when we were inside the bar in Coasta Sand resort,it started to rain HEAVILY.

so i went down to the beach to cover the tent with waterproof sheet.but by the time i reached,my tent had already been flooded T~T

ok...my stuff were all wet includinf my cam,iPod,Vin's iPhone,Bright N72.... ok total of S$3000 +

I managed to save my cam,iPod...everything.

and so went back to the bar stay there till 6+,waited for the rain to stop

packed,cleaned,went home,slept :)

PS. i've got new laptop :)

2008-08-29T14:21:00.002+08:00

my face looks guan teen(irritating) again!

Firstly, I'd like to thank my father,my mother for raising me up.Thanks to all teachers for teaching...blah..blah...blahh.I'm glad that i'm given a chance to recieve the best student award!!!

Oh siao liao!!!!! i'm just joking.i'm not tat kind one ok?hahah eww..want to vomit like your highness

someone asked me today if i have updated my blog and someone said that definitely i'd not have updated yet! So i'm here to prove that person wrong!

today is teachers' day.Yeah Yeah is it a custom to say happy teachers' day?

whatever...anyway we're (Jo,Xian,Shujun and me) are setting up campaigne called "Hair Flipping For Peace" does it sound like "Pantie For Peace"? anyway we're promoting hair flipping..

Today I learned about the difference of Singaporean and ppl of other counties' expression when they see an ant!

Singaporeans : "eee...ant leh"

"wan lao!got ant one!"

"ai yo'! ant leh"

ppl of other counties: "eew...ant" (with slang accent!)

you should be studying,not me :)

2008-08-16T11:25:00.002+08:00

ytd was my oral exam,i think i had done well enough :)

last night was really 'wonderful' (really really). i'm pround to announce that i lost my way in Singapore man! haha

i was going to east coast park without knowing how to go from my house.So i took a risk.

i left my house at ard 7.40pm and managed to reach 54E BBQ pit at east coast by 10 + pm! cool right? Guinness book should put my name in as the person that took the longest time to travel in SG ;P

ok back to the bus ride, i took 13 from potong pasir all the way to pasir ris terminal as a friend of mine told me that it could bring me to my destination. the terminal looks so huanted!lights are all off and there were not even 10 ppl there.i was thinking of where i should go then.

I found a sign " East Coast Park 1700m".emm..yah 1700m no choice but to walk. The way was damn dark and quiet,really suit 7th month.and i was alone..

yah so when i completed my 1700m,i was somewhere in east coast area i think,it was area H.i wasnt chilled at all.from H to E is quite a disaster.but no choice got to walk! i followed the sign again.i dunno how far did a walk,probably 5km!!!! it was like i was in the midst of jungle.i was alone.i was thinking if all the lights went off what was i going to do then??haha

i couldnt stop walking.walking back wasnt a chioce 'cos that 1700m had scared me enough.i realised when sth wasnt quite right when i saw a sign "MOE Changi Camp" !!!!!!!

yeah..u guys rmb that place....yeah i was going to east coast but i was there yeahh yeahh!hahah

so my solution was sitting at the roadside and wait for a taxi to pass me.i got a taxi aft 30min of waiting.at first the driver refused to send me to ECP,claiming that he wanted to go home alr.so i begged abd begged and begged that i was losing my way.luckily he was kind enough.

YEAHHH!! YIPPY! i reached the place in the end. i have learnt that SG isnt that small. I learnt not to trust the sign boards =)

so i survived.

^_____________________________________^

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2008-08-09T23:53:00.002+08:00

I'm tagged by Josanne

1. What is your current obsessionObsession?

Nothing! or O'level? may be :)

2. Do you currently have a girlfriend/boyfriend?

Nope.

3. Wtf would you do if the person that tagged you, confessed that they loved you?

definitely cant be! if not i would jump or slap myself

4. Do you consider yourself to be a nerd/geek?

not at all!

5. What are you absolutely desperate for right now?

Money and good results.

6. Wtf are you doing right now?

chatting on hp,answerinf stupid questions.irritating

7. What would you do with $10kShop and Save~

nothing, i'm not interested.

8. What freaks you out the most?

lizard and ghosts

9. What is your favourite band / singer?

Jay Chou :)

10. Who did you tag to do this quiz?!

no one.i dont wish to disturb others

2008-07-29T23:31:00.003+08:00

Yo! just a quick updates

first of all, my first O'level paper is approaching in just 77days and most importantly i have not studied at all!

secondly, i want to announce that i jumped over the school's back gate for the first time on shu jun's BD and that would be the only time! i just kept forgetting to say this.

lastly, garage sales was boring! nothing interests me.

byebye,

good luck

with love,

an O'level candidate! :(

:))))))))))))))))

2008-07-16T15:36:00.010+08:00

someone is running into the scene!haha

updated! hahahahaha :)

THURSDAY

2008-07-10T21:55:00.010+08:00

went for life science 'exhibition' with Jo today. my aim was to get Starbucks vourcher and later found out that it's worth only $5! i got a little fox from answering a ques from William's group. the fox is so cute la. then whoever that saw the fox asked me where i got it from, what was the ques and ans.... and then they all went to the booth and answered the ques then got the fox. Cheater!
i was playing with the fox too much and i lost it TT. William denied to give another :( (...you're so means.......i'll got each one of u!)
aft that i went to my senior's friend's house somewhere on Macpherson rd. she's moving to Shanghai tml so just went to say byebye. these are what i got from the life sci. exh.

my senior's friend's daughter! mix-child : scottish - thai

what i got from life sci. exhi.

ROTIJOHNANDPRAWNMEE

2008-07-09T22:46:00.003+08:00

suddenly,sth reminds me of mr.koh's word... "no time already,no time already"
yes! there's really no time already TT
i decided not to go for night study in sch. becoz i dont have the commitment :P

oh, today aft sch i stayed back with Jo and Yanrong to have lunch. So i went to the malay stall,planning to have roti john. you know what! i ordered roti john and the aunty gave me prawn mee!!!! she claimed that after i ordered roti john, she asked me if i want prawn mee and i said 'yes'. hmmm so i might have heard wrongly. but i the first place, why did she ask me abt prawn mee aft i ordered roti john? funny
then she said...

aunty : i asked u,u said yes. so how?
me: harrr....
aunty : then how?!
me: ok la ok la, eat this also can ( walked away,disappointedly ) :(

oh.. and mdm Azizah was absent again!

LOC [laughoutcry]

2008-07-08T18:21:00.004+08:00

probably,that's my feeling right now?

today was a half-day again, really a half-day! we only have lessons untill 940. we were just so surprised that mdm Azizah was not in school today. hahaa so we enjoyed :) Josanne was irritrating!She kept talking abt Jap class. so interesting meh?hahahaaa~~ u have got so many ppl going with u, i feel like going to see mr.chen speaks jap for a sentence or two. that's all what i interested abt ^^

i'm so tired... dont know why are there so many things happening to me right now, mostly bad things TT
trying to study for that 'O' level cert. now i realise that what we have been doing for 4years is just for this few hours,spending on pieces of paper. and these papers will then clarifies what will be of us in the future. probably paper is God =\

dont know what bad karma i had made, i'm facing so much problems...quarreling with my best friend , extremely terrible. Especially when u dont know or sure what u have done to cause it. Yay..and i am still puzzle with some clues. I should know my best friend's feelings the best but i still cant figure out what i had done to upset her so much that ppl are crying because of me TT
am i just being to carefree that i didnt think that others would take it so seriously. it's just because we dont talk and keep it unclear btw us and so this happens. herrrrr..i feel so BAD

PS. u ppl are so means.... blah blah blah.. if nt i'll get each one of u! 0.0

2008-07-07T13:10:00.002+08:00

It's now seventh of July and i still can't make myself to study -.-'
what should i do nowwwwwwwwwwwww... feel like crying
i feel discouraging everytime i see how much time i have left but i still dont buvk up
WEIRD!
seems like yesterday i was still in sec 1 O.o

yesterday, so many things hit and surprised me. First if all, Nandhiny msg me abt $ she owned me that time (oh i had forgotten!) hahaha... and so i wish the person who owns me "$$$$$" (more than a"$") will return me soon,before a starting to strave to dead TT

second of all, suddenly Bright and Zing started to feel hurt towards me!!!!!!!!!!
yeah, sound funny but it's so puzzling. form what i heard they feel that i dont care them as much as last time and a lot a lot more things.
quite funny but true. so i spent the whole night thinking what i have done wrong.I thought i have always been the same, haven't i?
so recently, i had made my friends cried to sleep because of my innocent acts
arr... so sad T^T

I AM THE KINDEST CREDITOR ON EARTH

2008-07-06T02:31:00.000+08:00

05-07-08, i went to Fericia's birthday party for 'a while' - a really a while
i was too late , shujun went home already, but u know who i met there?
my debtor! haha~ but as usual,i dare not approach that particular person
may be i just put myself in her shoes , i just dont know how she will react when she is asked to pay her debt :( [why am i using POA language?]
but i just really want my $$$$$ back leh T__T

I will pronounce myself as "The Kindest Creditor On Earth"
and of couse.. i'll nv get $$$$ back again hahahahaaa
so just think that i had made donation to... strangers?

TARDAR '

2008-07-06T01:43:00.001+08:00

oh, my blog is back!