Friday, October 30, 2009
My SAT score is out today. I'm under depression. I was expecting 650 ^ for Maths but it ended only 570! T^T How?
ting tong, 12:20 AM.
Wednesday, October 28, 2009
Hi there! I am back to update after have been gone for about 2 months. I am sorry but was just to busy. Home for me is only the place to sleep,shower and have breakfast. I am outside EVERYDAY and only be back home in the late evening. TT Please don't think that I am having a good life here. I have class everyday ok! My everyday is almost the same so this may be a reason why I didn't update my blog at all becos there's nothing to update. heehee. I hope I could update more often when I am done with my exams. There're still 2 more to go. For now, I'll update at least once a month! haha
Just went to Kor Larn in Pattaya last Tue. That was super nice. I totally forgot about a small island calls Sentosa! I'm lazy to re-upload the photos here so please see them on FB. I wish I can bring you guys go one day ^^
I guess I'll be without school untill next June or August. I'm waiting for the University addmission in Jan. I've to prepare a portfolio that contains my art works.Aww....super tired.
I'm planning to go to SG in Jan or Feb. I hope this plan will be a confirm one and not just a blank dream.lol. Dad was talking to me about it today.He asked where would I be staying and I innocently answered him 'Hotel'. He wasn't so satisfied.Oh damn. He asked why don't I stay at a friend's place. This's so funny! I wish I can too but is he thinking that I only have a few friends there? I'd feel really bad to disturb a friend who would have to find a space for me to sleep and be a nice host to take care of me when he/she has to go to school and leaving me in her house!! ? Some more, when I go out with other groups of friends and be home late and he/she has to wait for me to be back? that's very ridiculous! My dad's point is that if I stay at my friend's,my friend will feel easy to stay at mine when he/she visits me in Thailand! It may be true but I think the feeling is diffident eh. Ok nvm , I'll find my way! haha
ting tong, 10:49 PM.
Wednesday, August 26, 2009
ting tong, 12:29 AM.
Tuesday, August 25, 2009
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Hi everyone, I'm here to update before XW kills me. I know I said that I'd update soon but I didn't have enough time to type my whole post..
The picture above is my lastest work. I used my 2 hands to draw it out. so please lemme have a little space to show it out.hahahaha
I've been very well. Not feeling so uncomfortable at home anymore for no reason. However, yet I still desire for me freedom.
My life is quite boring,like I'm living according to a timetable. Everything goes the same everyday. But as you know, I cant really stay in the frame. I've got to sneak out.hahahaha
So I often run to somewhere at the end of the day.
As my life has been so boring, I have nothing much to update now. XW told me to upload photos and so I'll upload them in the next post.
I miss you guys and hope that we can meet soon soon ( before the colour of XW's Longchamp feded!.)
goooooooooodnite :D
ting tong, 11:56 PM.
Sunday, July 26, 2009
I'm sorry for being away for so longggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggg.
I didn't want to update 'cos most of the things to update were bad memories so I didnt want to update, even for now. I want to apologise for not reading you guys' blogs too. I'm not having spare time for myself at all.
Dad sent me for classes and ordered me to do so many stuff at home. So many that I don't understand his intention. I'm having full-day classes 5days a week and 3 other duties to be done at home. So how many hours do I have left for myself not including time for bed? This may sound so exaggerating but it's really happening to me and it'll be like this for as long as I'm home. I'm not used to this kind of life at all. Okay, you guys may say that you are also busy but there are differences between us.you can go out after school and be home a bit late or have late night outs at the weekends. Yeah, I can't. I don't know why he wanted me to go out to the world,to live by myself and to manage everything by myself when he wants to control me in everyway. I feel so uncomfortable to be around him. If he wants me to be closer to him then I would say please find some other ways. I'm not an obeying kid anymore. I want to choose for myself when I know I can't!These things will just keeps us apart and will be further and further.
He just talked to me again today. Whatever he said might not sound so bad but it gave me pressure. His words alway give me pressure. I just can't feel the happiness to be home with family. I know I can't hate him when I love him so much.So I'm trying to keep a distance and we won't have to quarrel. People told me to speak out but I would say I don't dare to. I don't want him to see me as a weak kid. I would rather force myself to do what he wanted me to even I know I'd fail.
I wish to enjoy myself as much as possible at this age but I think I got to give it up. I know I'm enjoying too but I can't never be as how I had. I'm crying like a kid but I got to keep it as a secret. I'm just wishing to go somewhere far because I know that this will give me the sense of lovely and warm family!
I may sound so sorrowful. I think I am. My dad isn't that strict but I just hate the way he rules me. I enjoy what I love to do and I'm enjoying them. However, I can give pieces of shit when I'm doing things that I dont wish to do. :D
I love you dad.
I didn't want to update 'cos most of the things to update were bad memories so I didnt want to update, even for now. I want to apologise for not reading you guys' blogs too. I'm not having spare time for myself at all.
Dad sent me for classes and ordered me to do so many stuff at home. So many that I don't understand his intention. I'm having full-day classes 5days a week and 3 other duties to be done at home. So how many hours do I have left for myself not including time for bed? This may sound so exaggerating but it's really happening to me and it'll be like this for as long as I'm home. I'm not used to this kind of life at all. Okay, you guys may say that you are also busy but there are differences between us.you can go out after school and be home a bit late or have late night outs at the weekends. Yeah, I can't. I don't know why he wanted me to go out to the world,to live by myself and to manage everything by myself when he wants to control me in everyway. I feel so uncomfortable to be around him. If he wants me to be closer to him then I would say please find some other ways. I'm not an obeying kid anymore. I want to choose for myself when I know I can't!These things will just keeps us apart and will be further and further.
He just talked to me again today. Whatever he said might not sound so bad but it gave me pressure. His words alway give me pressure. I just can't feel the happiness to be home with family. I know I can't hate him when I love him so much.So I'm trying to keep a distance and we won't have to quarrel. People told me to speak out but I would say I don't dare to. I don't want him to see me as a weak kid. I would rather force myself to do what he wanted me to even I know I'd fail.
I wish to enjoy myself as much as possible at this age but I think I got to give it up. I know I'm enjoying too but I can't never be as how I had. I'm crying like a kid but I got to keep it as a secret. I'm just wishing to go somewhere far because I know that this will give me the sense of lovely and warm family!
I may sound so sorrowful. I think I am. My dad isn't that strict but I just hate the way he rules me. I enjoy what I love to do and I'm enjoying them. However, I can give pieces of shit when I'm doing things that I dont wish to do. :D
I love you dad.
ting tong, 12:01 AM.
Thursday, June 18, 2009
My exam has ended but I don't feel any good. It was oral exam today and I dont think I've done well. I could really feel that the teacher kinda dislike me (in some sense). May be it's because I didn't work hard and my speech didn't impress her.
I was feeling so great last night after I had a chat with my colombian and canadian friend. They are much older than me but I feel good to be with them. I think I can learn a lot of things from them. My canadian friend is an architect and I was telling her about my dream. I wish to become an architect too. It is not a blank dream. It's possible just that I don't really know if I'm ready for it yet. Others always tell me that it's really tough. You have to suffer throughout the 5years in the university and it's breath-taking. I heard that architecture students often have to stay up the whole night for their work. I know how I am.I know I cant endure much and Im so scared.She told me that she thought of giving up several times but she felt that if she gave up it would be wasted. I can imagine how I will be. I think I will cry several times and will regret for choosing it while I know that I do like it. Hmm..sounds a little ironic but it's true. Two of them gave me passion to try and to succeed. I was so into the conversation last night.
Im so blur right now because Im hungry.So will just end it like this.hahaha
I was feeling so great last night after I had a chat with my colombian and canadian friend. They are much older than me but I feel good to be with them. I think I can learn a lot of things from them. My canadian friend is an architect and I was telling her about my dream. I wish to become an architect too. It is not a blank dream. It's possible just that I don't really know if I'm ready for it yet. Others always tell me that it's really tough. You have to suffer throughout the 5years in the university and it's breath-taking. I heard that architecture students often have to stay up the whole night for their work. I know how I am.I know I cant endure much and Im so scared.She told me that she thought of giving up several times but she felt that if she gave up it would be wasted. I can imagine how I will be. I think I will cry several times and will regret for choosing it while I know that I do like it. Hmm..sounds a little ironic but it's true. Two of them gave me passion to try and to succeed. I was so into the conversation last night.
Im so blur right now because Im hungry.So will just end it like this.hahaha
ting tong, 11:43 AM.
Monday, June 15, 2009
Why do I feel that everything irritates me?
Now I wish to go home as fast as I could. I'm bored of everything now and I'm broke too! :(
My brother's Beijing trip has been cancelled because of H1N1.Thank you very much. My family dared to go to Japan but dare not to come to China. Which do you think is scarier?
I had my chinese writting exam today and I can say that it was totally crap. I left 24marks undo.hahahahaha.. You won't be able to guess how am I now. I skip school so often that teachers begin to dislike me! =x
I guess I'll study for the reading exam tmr! T.T
Now I wish to go home as fast as I could. I'm bored of everything now and I'm broke too! :(
My brother's Beijing trip has been cancelled because of H1N1.Thank you very much. My family dared to go to Japan but dare not to come to China. Which do you think is scarier?
I had my chinese writting exam today and I can say that it was totally crap. I left 24marks undo.hahahahaha.. You won't be able to guess how am I now. I skip school so often that teachers begin to dislike me! =x
I guess I'll study for the reading exam tmr! T.T
ting tong, 1:27 PM.